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This is a question that I've often struggled with. To say that I'm indecisive doesn't even scratch the surface. When it comes to everyday things, I usually let other people decide what to do, where to eat, etc.. and then just go with it. I don't know if that's because I don't care (apathetic) or I truly don't know what I want (pathetic). Here is my attempt to figure out what I want out of life... Hopefully this won't be too embarrassing. :toomuch:/>
I want to be comfortable around people.
I want to stop being so damn self-conscious about everything.
I want to be able to voice my opinion (if I have one) and express my emotions.
I want to be able to let people in, past these ridiculous walls I've built up around myself.
I want to stop panicking at the thought of going to the gynecologist and actually go to make sure all is well.
I want to start eating healthier and actually stick to it for more than a week, same goes for exercise.
I want to make enough money so that I can live comfortably without stressing about bills.
I want to stop watching violent pornography and having rape fantasies.
I want to be able to pleasure myself without also hurting myself or feeling dirty and disgusting afterwards. :blush:/>
I want to look in the mirror and actually like what I see.
I want to stop hating myself.
Now... how do I go about getting these things??? :confused:/>