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A very wise woman told me that if you know what it is that you want in life, you may be better able to recognize any opportunities, if and when they present themselves, that might aid you in getting what you want. The other side of that coin is, if you don't have a clue what you want, you may be letting these opportunities pass you by without even knowing it. That got me thinking... what the heck do I want??
This is a question that I've often struggled with. To say that I'm indecisive doesn't even scratch the surface. When it comes to everyday things, I usually let other people decide what to do, where to eat, etc.. and then just go with it. I don't know if that's because I don't care (apathetic) or I truly don't know what I want (pathetic). Here is my attempt to figure out what I want out of life... Hopefully this won't be too embarrassing. :toomuch:/>
I want to be comfortable around people.
I want to stop being so damn self-conscious about everything.
I want to be able to voice my opinion (if I have one) and express my emotions.
I want to be able to let people in, past these ridiculous walls I've built up around myself.
I want to stop panicking at the thought of going to the gynecologist and actually go to make sure all is well.
I want to start eating healthier and actually stick to it for more than a week, same goes for exercise.
I want to make enough money so that I can live comfortably without stressing about bills.
I want to stop watching violent pornography and having rape fantasies.
I want to be able to pleasure myself without also hurting myself or feeling dirty and disgusting afterwards. :blush:/>
I want to look in the mirror and actually like what I see.
I want to stop hating myself.
Now... how do I go about getting these things??? :confused:/>
This is a question that I've often struggled with. To say that I'm indecisive doesn't even scratch the surface. When it comes to everyday things, I usually let other people decide what to do, where to eat, etc.. and then just go with it. I don't know if that's because I don't care (apathetic) or I truly don't know what I want (pathetic). Here is my attempt to figure out what I want out of life... Hopefully this won't be too embarrassing. :toomuch:/>
I want to be comfortable around people.
I want to stop being so damn self-conscious about everything.
I want to be able to voice my opinion (if I have one) and express my emotions.
I want to be able to let people in, past these ridiculous walls I've built up around myself.
I want to stop panicking at the thought of going to the gynecologist and actually go to make sure all is well.
I want to start eating healthier and actually stick to it for more than a week, same goes for exercise.
I want to make enough money so that I can live comfortably without stressing about bills.
I want to stop watching violent pornography and having rape fantasies.
I want to be able to pleasure myself without also hurting myself or feeling dirty and disgusting afterwards. :blush:/>
I want to look in the mirror and actually like what I see.
I want to stop hating myself.
Now... how do I go about getting these things??? :confused:/>
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Sometimes we can see what needs changing but willing to make these changes can be so scary- I know this might not be any help but I wanted you to know you are not alone in this matter.
Thank you for your response. It does help to know that I'm not alone. I agree that actually taking steps towards making the changes happen can be very scary. Here's to hoping that we can both overcome our fears!
If I'm honest I could have written the nearly the exact same list. Like the others I'm no real help just say that take your time and if you want you can get there. Knowing what you wanna do/stop doing is half the battle isn't it?. I also just wanted to say you should be very proud of yourself...even in the last week you seem less afraid to say what you're feeling. We're all here to support you and I hope it can help in some way
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