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What don't you like about yourself?

26 October 2012

Posted by GuitarHero

My T asked me this last week and I wasn't able to answer her. She wanted me to use my voice so she wouldn't let me write it down. I just sat there. I don't know why it's so difficult to speak out loud. Anyway, here's what I came up with today...

Why don’t you like yourself? What don’t you like about yourself?

[u]Let’s...

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Am I ok with being "blah"?

26 October 2012

Posted by GuitarHero

My T asked me to think about whether or not I want to change some aspect of myself or if I'm ok with feeling "blah" about things... I don't think she actually used the word "blah" but yea..

My parents are not emotional people. Neither one of them really gets excited about things. I don’t know if I’ve ever heard...

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Can you imagine...?

06 October 2012

Posted by GuitarHero

Took this idea from one of the threads in the challenging discussions forum.

Can you imagine what it is...

...to feel utterly alone while standing in a room full of people?
...to always feel like you're on the outside looking in?
...to feel as though you have absolutely nothing in common with anyone else?
...to wake up every morning feeling...

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What have I forgotten?

03 October 2012

Posted by GuitarHero

I've been thinking about the idea that I may have dissociated a bit as a child... I'm confused by it and it kind of creeps me out too. I don't understand why I would remember specific "bad" things and then not remember seemingly benign things. One would think the purpose of dissociation is to block out the bad stuff. So...

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Sometimes realizations blow.

02 October 2012

Posted by GuitarHero

My t told me today that she thinks I may have dissociated as a child. There's a huge part of me that is fighting to disagree with that assessment. I was hoping that the lack of clarity surrounding my childhood was within the normal range of variation among people. On the other hand, I think she may be right.