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why won't it just all go away... help me.

Posted by Clemsta , 24 January 2014 · 103 views

I am spiraling and spiraling downwards...
My bf left me last night. My past is haunting me worse than ever...
Him... her... that night... that day... those events.
All these flash backs
I can feel it and there's nothing I can do to stop it.
Thoughts getting darker and darker...
Feeling more and more down...
Crying and crying...
Feeling more and more helpless and worthless.
Why can't I get the help I need?
Why do I have to struggle everyday...
Why do I have to feel so depressed. Its like its got hold of me and I can't shake it off.
It holding with big claws, dug in deep, so deep.
Its dragging me further down into a complete pitch black darkness and i'm trying to come up for air just for a quick breath.
But I can't, I'm struggling.
And it's not going to be long till I drown.

Jan 24 2014 10:44 AM



Just wanted to drop by and say you aren't alone either. If you need anything (not that I know what I am doing), feel free to PM me!

Jan 24 2014 10:44 AM

And I don't think you will drown. I think you are here, trying, and that can only help.

thanks :) same to you, if you need a chat just message me. i'm not sure what im doing either

December 2014

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