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Sick of it all...

11 February 2012
Posted by might4right  
I just need to get it out:

I am sick of feeling like "this" defines me
I am sick of my brother manipulating everyone so he doesn't have to take responsibility
I am sick of caring what he is doing about it
I am sick of worrying that I have hurt my parents by telling the truth
I am sick of the anxiety
I am sick of being afraid of the...
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The anxiety is back :-(

30 January 2012
Posted by might4right  
Been really struggling with anxiety for several weeks now. I have an appt to start up my therapy again this week. I get overwhelmed with emotions and the irrational fear that something terrible is about to happen. It happens in different place and I can't seem to figure out what is triggering it. I realize after my last stint in therapy...
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Posted by might4right  
So the older brother still isn't talking to ANYONE in the family. Went through the whole holiday without a word to my parents. I didn't expect him to call me for sure...but not speak to your parents??? I have noticed that some of my anxiety is creeping back in. Having trouble sleeping and not really wanting to go anywhere or do...
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3 months have past

30 October 2011
Posted by might4right  
Just looked back saw that my first entry was over 3 months ago. In a way I felt like I have lived an entire lifetime during that three months. My father did finally have a conversation with my older brother. He seems reluctant to discuss much of the conversation with me...only to tell me he is "very upset about the situation". I am...
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3 months have past

30 October 2011
Posted by might4right  
Just looked back saw that my first entry was over 3 months ago. In a way I felt like I have lived an entire lifetime during that three months. My father did finally have a conversation with my older brother. He seems reluctant to discuss much of the conversation with me...only to tell me he is "very upset about the situation". I am...
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A brother in hiding

08 October 2011
Posted by might4right  
So my older brother was confronted over a month ago by my younger brother. At the time he basically denied almost everything. My father has tried to contact him twice recently and my younger brother tried to contact him yesterday. He has not responded to anyone at this point. It appears he has gone into "hiding". He live is MI and...
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Deny, deny and deny

04 September 2011
Posted by might4right  
So my younger brother (good) confronted my older brother (abuser) yesterday. And he denied everything except what he couldn't because of witnesses. He said the incident that my father witnessed (see blog entry or earlier posts) was a one time thing. He said we were in fact younger (he said he was around 14 and I was around 10) and that we were...
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Finished Therapy!

03 September 2011
Posted by might4right  
Yes, you read that right! I went into therapy on Thursday feeling like a million bucks and left feeling that way as well! I told my therapist that all of sudden I looked in the basement for that little girl I have been obsessed with (my 13 year old self) and she wasn't there. The basement was dark and empty!!!

I...
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Overwhelming sadness

20 August 2011
Posted by might4right  
I am really struggling with this intense sadness that I can't shake. Is it still the anger or is it sadness. Frustrated at the whole situation. Situation...does that even explain what I am going through??? PLEASE...it is the clusterfuck of my shattered psyche. Feeling such sadness for the 13 year old left in the basement with her abusive...
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Posted by might4right  
Dear Young Girl,

I am with you and you are not alone. I know what just happened was scary and confusing. When your dad saw you in bed with your brother he handled it VERY wrong. Your brother was hurting you and it was not your fault. Your brother has no right to touch your body and to hurt you. Your mom and dad should have done more to keep...
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