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In bed all day - horrible flashbacks & body memory

Posted by mormonm0m1 , 31 January 2014 · 68 views

TW - I have been in my bed most the day ...


Tears are just streaming and I can't control it. I'm feeling fearful and sad and frustrated this is disturbing my day off to do things I had planned. Things I planned for me . I feel this overwhelming need to be alone and isolated. Even the thought of stepping outside my room feels too big and violating. I feel little ... I can't explain it better than that.

I'm freezing cold and shivering even though it's 78 degrees in my room ...

I'm giving up for a little while and I'm back in bed under my warming blanket on Highest setting, crying and gonna go to sleep .... Too overwhelmed ...

I feel like I'm failing ...

Them the worst flashback happened and I was having a problem recognizing what was real and what wasn't ....

My therapist has been a text/email away all day telling me it's ok and take care of myself and giving up and staying in bed is taking care of myself.


When my husband got home I wanted out to go do some sushi emotion eating. It was going to be the first time I've been out of my room all day.

I thought I felt good enough to go but it was all I could do after dinner to get back to my bed... Being out around people didn't feel safe.

Back under my covers and heTing blanket ...

Hope I start feeling and functioning better soon.



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July 2014

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