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struggling; remembered some things; flashbacks

Posted by indigo_rainbow , 20 April 2013 · 92 views


I have been trying to be well, but something opened the "shoeboxes" in the closet of my mind.

:trigger:

I keep experiencing the smell and taste of blood. I don't know where it is coming from. Maybe it is all in my head. I am hurting in the places I was hurt long ago. The slightest thing, the littlest reminder brings everything back. I feel like I am perpetually about to gag. I feel everything again. I feel so unclean. I feel too dirty to even pray or talk to God.

Aside from all that, I am still mourning. I am mourning my innocence, my child. I am mourning all of the lives I have known that were lost in death or insanity. I am in a gray, choppy sea of grief. :tear:



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