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'I feel pretty, I feel pretty, I feel pretty - and witty - and gay!'

Posted by bambi86 , 24 January 2012 · 109 views

Don't mind the header it's taken from that old song 'I Feel Pretty'. :)

Well I do feel pretty - I've gained weight over the last 6 months but nonetheless I have regained a sparkle in my eyes, colour in my cheeks and just started exercising again.

I realise now that, feeling good (for me) is no longer dependant on the external. When I...


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'I feel pretty, I feel pretty, I feel pretty - and witty - and gay!'

Posted by bambi86 , 24 January 2012 · 112 views

Don't mind the header it's taken from that old song 'I Feel Pretty'. :)

Well I do feel pretty - I've gained weight over the last 6 months but nonetheless I have regained a sparkle in my eyes, colour in my cheeks and just started exercising again.

I realise now that, feeling good (for me) is no longer dependant on the external. When I...


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I Wonder...

Posted by bambi86 , 20 October 2011 · 129 views

List of Things Accomplished since I last wrote:

* Moved to the Big City alone
* Got my overdue debts in Order
* Started a new job
* Integrated into culture and made friends
* Started 'loving' my body again by doing Yoga & I start Tai Chi tomorrow
* Working on my relationship with Huss
* Made it to my 25th bday (its in 8 days :) )
* Socialisin...


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Waiting for Direction

Posted by bambi86 , 10 September 2011 · 123 views

Hello All :hug:

Right now it's Sunday in Australia and I'm waiting to hear back about two job interviews I had this Thursday and Friday in the Capital City.

One role has a fabulous hourly rate, autonomy, project ownership. The other role has a great title, lots of autonomy and reasonable pay.

I did the best I could in both interviews - but...


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The Post Break-Up Struggle

Posted by bambi86 , in Relationships 23 August 2011 · 172 views

:banghead:

I texted the ex. :banghead:

Oh don't you worry, I berated myself for it! I just had to say one thing. I had to tell him that I was kind of shocked how easily he let me go. This is a guy who said 'I love you', 'I want you to be my wife', 'I want to marry you' and so on. So, naturally, when I broke up with him -...


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Look Out! This Woman is PiSSED OFF!

Posted by bambi86 , in The Swear Box 22 August 2011 · 103 views

:angry:

That's right...

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Takes Deep Breath In

What is it with people who think that they can walk on in to your life, and project themselves onto your turntable. I'm here trying to play MY music, and you're throwing your Record's on without consulting me.

I'm trying to hear MY music. I'm trying to heal MY soul. And...


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Walking Tall

Posted by bambi86 , in You Come First 22 August 2011 · 81 views

Hello Readers! :hug:

Today is a new day :).

Relationships & Love:
I am now single, and I feel 'free'. The weight of being by the phone has gone. The perpetual fear of dissapointing him , has gone. The anxiety of 'yes but, what next, where is this going?' has gone. But I am not without remorse. Though, I do not have regret....


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A Relationship Post Assault

Posted by bambi86 , in Relationships 22 August 2011 · 104 views

Why is it so hard to be in a Relationship Post Assault? Or maybe it's not hard - with the right person. Maybe, my relationship (which was brief - 3months or so) was confined to the boundaries of what it USED to be, what I used to be.

See, 3months ago, when I started talking to my then partner (Huss), I was lot more unsure of myself. Particularly arou...


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My Healing Process So Far...

Posted by bambi86 , in Healing 21 August 2011 · 159 views

Hello Readers! :hug:

After reviewing my many Posts on Pandy's, I've elected to submit most of my thoughts, ponderings and realisations on a Blog instead.

It's been 5 months since the assault - and I would like to open up the space I am taking on My Voice, for people who need it more. I'll still post occasionally, but my voice (see...





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