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So far 2011 has seemed to be a pretty tough year on me, which says a lot all things considered with what I had been through last year. I've been in a serious car accident fresh after having surgery for a small tumor removal around the same time as my first anniversary(as if the other stuff wasn't enough). I've almost been kicked out of college for unsatisfactory academic achievement while also achieving some high aptitude accomplishments, such as having my research paper and an abstract published. I got a boyfriend when I thought I wouldn't be open to dating another guy for much longer than a year. One of my supervising professors died in the middle of this semester. I got my first and second ever traffic ticket within 2 weeks. And I've learned the pain of losing one's emergency cash because of bills and lost jobs.
The sad part about all of that is I still have the month of December left AND I took out the bit about counseling and the student organization stresses. Just reading some of this stuff over makes me tired and wondering how in the hell do keep things together and I think of the answer I always give my Ts, "I'm not."
I feel like this year I have embraced the notion that "I'm not okay" and so I think that is why I have been feeling like I have no drive to do much of anything and paranoid crazy about everyone and their every actions, because I feel so tired and drained I don't feel like being bothered or further hurt.
Does anyone else ever reflect on the type of year they had and analyze how they were feeling overall in that time frame?
The sad part about all of that is I still have the month of December left AND I took out the bit about counseling and the student organization stresses. Just reading some of this stuff over makes me tired and wondering how in the hell do keep things together and I think of the answer I always give my Ts, "I'm not."
I feel like this year I have embraced the notion that "I'm not okay" and so I think that is why I have been feeling like I have no drive to do much of anything and paranoid crazy about everyone and their every actions, because I feel so tired and drained I don't feel like being bothered or further hurt.
Does anyone else ever reflect on the type of year they had and analyze how they were feeling overall in that time frame?
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