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glass

29 April 2013
Posted by anji13  
i say
i am untouchable
unbroken
numb

most hours
i am alone
i sit
deaf to the noise surrounding
my shattered heart

i am
some fragile thing
sitting a self
lost within myself
my grief

i will not say
i am glass
glass is beautiful
sharp and contained

i am wild
rough dull

but we share a common past
glass and i
both hardened by heat
pressed by...
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Posted by anji13  
time over time
the wilted flower wondered
I stand here alone
cold and passed over

no one helps me grow
no one stays at my side
no one saves me from the evening gloaming
and I spend another darkness
waiting for the sun

in the dawn as it comes
the warmth does not please me
for it only ends in cold
when the nighttime returns

so the flower,...
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adrift

24 March 2013
Posted by anji13  
maybe sometimes its hard to smile
or find things worth being happy for
and sometimes I watch the entire world
spin away from me
like I severed my anchor from my soul
I don't need stability anymore

I need days where the sun is important
or moments with people I miss
maybe I'm more than just lost
maybe I should do something
call out to...
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letters to them all

28 December 2012
Posted by anji13  
to my family
i understand your frustrations, i am my own
all the world entrusted to me
and i let you down

in all fairness
i've never felt so abandoned
never been so alone

to my brother
i forgive all the left behind moments
all the silent meals and doubting eyes
i dont know what to say to you either
we've grown into strangers

in all...
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its been rough

02 December 2012
Posted by anji13  
Been having some pretty bad anxiety and panic attacks lately. My brother, who is basically the only person I have left, has been in the hospital after a heart attack. I've already lost a brother and I dont think I could handle that again.
Every few minutes I lose my breath and I can't think or do anything.
I dont know what to do right...
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powerless

06 November 2012
Posted by anji13  
every dawn just another red warning
words dont even come any more
one more thing
over and over

my fingertips are colored
burnt from all my rage
carved bones bent
over and over again

my roots are sand
pressured
bleached
weak from the rain

my voice
my recovery
lost in the building echo
of a beating shore

the night comes
leaving me on the...
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low day

19 October 2012
Posted by anji13  
feeling triggered today for no reason, woke up with it hanging over me. fighting off the urge to fall into my ED habits. telling myself to just breathe. breathe.

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drowning ghost

07 October 2012
Posted by anji13  
where I started
where I want to be

but this heart grows tired
it feels old

I am a lost country
of somethings buried too deep

no more self told lies
whispering in my ear to never look back
my bones wither
sand moved by waves

lost
I can not swim back
when I was young
I never knew
this endless swell
pain that is beyond
the gleam of the...
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reponse from last post

05 August 2012
Posted by anji13  
Just wanted to thank everyone so much for the support on my last post, especially Sherodon Irishleo. You two helped me so much. I did have a SI slip two nights ago but it wasnt as severe as they've been in the past. And after the first I did stop myself from doing anything worse. Mainly because I just kept reading and rereading the comments on...
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cant

02 August 2012
Posted by anji13  
i feel like i have to strong for every one else. not only to be the person they can talk to about everything, any time but also just put on this mask that i'm ok. there is so much going on for everyone else. some days i just accept the fact that i'm always going to be in the dark, alone watching every one live on with their lives. and i...
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