it was heart breaking. to be denied help that i voluntarily offered myself for. i dont want to be critical of others or make it seem like my issues are more important than someone else but i'm just so entirely lost right now.
i dont ask for help often. rarely if ever. i've been slipping alot lately and just needed something concrete to turn to. and then this guy, this stranger asks my age and without even talking to me says no you're too old. it was like he was saying i wasnt valid. i'm not important enough to get help.
errrrr just so incredibly frustrated.
on top of it too i've been having terrible insomnia, no sleeping in three days.
shouldnt i be over this by now? when does it start to get easier?
so embarrassed to be me right now. just want to curl up and cry for the next week.