I've had enough
He said most people aren't "cured" but are able to function on their own for the most part between 10 sessions and 1 year of therapy. (approximate of course).
I looked at him and started to cry. "then what' wrong with me? Why are't I getting better"?
He actually teared up right along with me. He said "I'm sorry, I didn't mean for this topic to ever come up"
I asked him what isn't he telling me.
"Well, your situation, medically and psyciatrically speaking, I'm afraid to tell you that you will probably never be completely done with therapy".
He was crying. He and my psychiatrist have been holding It back from me so I wouldn't find out.
"So I'll never be ok."
He gave me this positive mumbo jumbo shit saying "You are doing ok. Look where you were when you started vs. now."
"but I'll never be normal again. I'll never be able to function without some type of help"
he held back his tears and said "I'm afraid not. I'm sorry. We're in this for the long haul."
I just feel so defeated. He tried so hard to put a positive spin on this for me, but I'll never be normal. I mieaswell plan on inviting him to my kids weddings in 20 years or so.
I could seriously just end it all right now. I'm tired of fighting for normalcy and I'll never get it.
I just want to curl up in a ball and die. I have no reason to hope for recovery.
I'm the definition of keeping someone "comfortable" because they are beyond help.