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I disgust My disguise

21 May 2012
Posted by Seanna 
I'm just feeling so lost and overwhelmed. Nobody sees me.all they see is the person that I allow to be seen. The problem is that i've become such a God actress that nobody knows who I really am.... Including myself. This costume that I put on every qmorning to function like a normal human...has everybody fooled and has confused me emotionally and mentally. I no longer comprehend which parts are Me and which partsI just Ss are a
farce. I just disgust meself for allowing this to happen. What's wrong with me???

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2 Comments On This Entry

Oh you are just in so much pain. I know what you mean putting on a facade and then wondering myself who am I really. Discovering that is a long process and you are already starting it by being here on Pandy's and sharing.

Take good care of you first. Blessings
bellachai, 22 May 2012 - 02:47 PM
I hear you. It is interesting that when you put on the facade for so long, it somehow just meshes into who you are. Mostly everyone around me sees me as this positive, happy person because that is what I have portrayed for so long...I even fool myself. I make sure to never portray negativity and it stifles some feelings that I can have. But they are still there. You are not alone in this.
BR26, 23 September 2012 - 10:24 AM
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