Flashbacks - Why can't I forget already?
More and more memories are coming back. So many I wanted to remember when I first began, but knew there was this specific part I needed to forget details about because it was just so degrading. Well, here I am. I guess my mind has processed teh other stuff sufficiently, and is now reminding me of everything that happened detail by detail in the cabin.
I'm just so sick of this absorbing and consuming my entire life. It gets old quick. Dave is also sick of me being so out of it about this. He has suggested I move on already. He's even said to me at one time recently... "It's ok to talk to me, but I really don't see how it will help our relationship. Dr. K is your psychologist... Not me."
THAT HURT. It really made me realize he's not there for me at all.
Now I can't help but wonder if he ever truly was or it was just an act; going through the motions.