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I don't remember, the last time.
nor the second, third or fourth.
I only remember the first time
Attempts to take me from this earth.
You held my face over fire
You choked me with your hands
You drowned me in the bath-tub
Because I wouldn't give in to your demands.
Those memories are jumbled
I hardly remember at all
Like that one time you pushed me
Down the steps and into the wall.
You left me outside, standing in the snow
Exposed and naked everything to show.
My face slammed so hard into the wall
But I don't remember that part at all.
What I don't remember,
is the pain you permitted others to partake.
Nor do I remember my tailbone
being kicked until it would break.
I don't remember very much at all
in fact, it scares me to death...
If I don't remeber that much;
How much more is left?
I don't want to know
How much more I don't recall
Like that time you tied me blind
and left me in a public stall.
I don't remember that,
Nor much else that you did
You let others degrade me
While I was just a kid.
I don't remember much,
As my memories unfold.
Remember that one time...
You trained me to be sold?
Those memories lay buried
Never again to surface.
How should I remember you?
To you, I had a purpose.
- Seanna
nor the second, third or fourth.
I only remember the first time
Attempts to take me from this earth.
You held my face over fire
You choked me with your hands
You drowned me in the bath-tub
Because I wouldn't give in to your demands.
Those memories are jumbled
I hardly remember at all
Like that one time you pushed me
Down the steps and into the wall.
You left me outside, standing in the snow
Exposed and naked everything to show.
My face slammed so hard into the wall
But I don't remember that part at all.
What I don't remember,
is the pain you permitted others to partake.
Nor do I remember my tailbone
being kicked until it would break.
I don't remember very much at all
in fact, it scares me to death...
If I don't remeber that much;
How much more is left?
I don't want to know
How much more I don't recall
Like that time you tied me blind
and left me in a public stall.
I don't remember that,
Nor much else that you did
You let others degrade me
While I was just a kid.
I don't remember much,
As my memories unfold.
Remember that one time...
You trained me to be sold?
Those memories lay buried
Never again to surface.
How should I remember you?
To you, I had a purpose.
- Seanna
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