Help
Donna Mae DePola - Guest Speaker Chat ...May 25th 2013 ... for more information please read this!
There is still plenty of time and spaces if you'd like to sign up for the Guest Speaker Chat scheduled for this Saturday!
There is still plenty of time and spaces if you'd like to sign up for the Guest Speaker Chat scheduled for this Saturday!
Welcome to Pandora's Aquarium, a rape, sexual assault, and sexual abuse survivor message board and chat room.
If you've been a victim of any type of sexual violence, you belong here. What you see below represents just a fraction of the resources and survivor support available. Register now to join our community and take full advantage of what this online support group has to offer you as you heal and recover, or sign in to remove this message.
You are not alone, we can support you as you heal, and you've made an important step toward recovery by reaching out. If you are unable to register or have any questions, please contact the staff or view our home page.
I had a therapy session this past week. I knew that with my stress level lots of things from my past abusive relationship was going to come to the fore-front. I just didn't expect it to happen so fast. Memories of incidents that I never remembered and wondering if I'm going crazy. Nightmares and not being able to tell the difference between a forgotten memory or a bad dream.
I cut again. haven't done that in 7 years. Regret is there of course but I have to say...it felt so good. I focused my crazy thoughts on my injury and it let me forget about everything else for a few minutes.
I get pain physically where i was hurt in the past when I think about it. difficulty walking, raising my arm etc. Sometimes it feels like it just happened and I'm re-healing all over again.
What I'm most scared of....is once the physical pain is gone. The emotional pain remains and is even more intense than the hurt. The abuse existed for 4 years of a 6 year relationship. I thought I was far along in my healing already...only to take a complete tailspin.
I'm going to end this now, because my thoughts are running together and I feel like I'm rambling.
Until Next time.
Seanna
I cut again. haven't done that in 7 years. Regret is there of course but I have to say...it felt so good. I focused my crazy thoughts on my injury and it let me forget about everything else for a few minutes.
I get pain physically where i was hurt in the past when I think about it. difficulty walking, raising my arm etc. Sometimes it feels like it just happened and I'm re-healing all over again.
What I'm most scared of....is once the physical pain is gone. The emotional pain remains and is even more intense than the hurt. The abuse existed for 4 years of a 6 year relationship. I thought I was far along in my healing already...only to take a complete tailspin.
I'm going to end this now, because my thoughts are running together and I feel like I'm rambling.
Until Next time.
Seanna
Share This Entry:
