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I was talking to a friend from work today (I've known her for almost 7 months now). She was telling me about her husband, and how she had been pretty reckless before knowing him. And then she asked me about myself, and I told her I have had a boyfriend before, for months, but that it all ended horribly wrong. She asked why...and I couldn't tell her, I just couldn't. She still kept asking, and I told her he had done something a man should never do to a woman...and she asked if he had cheated on me, and I said no..that it had been something worse. She loooked at me with a puzzled look in her face...but I didn't say anything. I was dying to say something, but she's a friend at work..I dunno where to find the limit on what to say and what not to. And I didn't know, I just didn't. What if she stopped talking to me. What if she looks down on me. What if she never speaks to me again.
I just. I don't know. I'm crying like a baby right now. I wish he had killed me, not left me alive. Everyone just asks, and I don't know what to say. It's stupid, it's horrible, and I hate him, even though I believed he was the love of my life at the time. Shit.
I just. I don't know. I'm crying like a baby right now. I wish he had killed me, not left me alive. Everyone just asks, and I don't know what to say. It's stupid, it's horrible, and I hate him, even though I believed he was the love of my life at the time. Shit.
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The two times I wrote here, it was out of anger. It was to vent. I'm a weird person, I know that, but please, please, if you comment, use R, T and only safe hugs. I know it sounds weird, but that's part of the way I cope with this.
I believe you are courageous woman with strength to beat this.
People may ask but you shouldn't feel that if you tell, people will look down on you because they aren't worth it if they do. You are so much better.
I hope you feel better and can get through this...
(save hugs) x
It sounds like your friend at work didn't know when to back off. And I'm sorry people ask. It makes it hard, but you do have the right to not give any explanation, and to have your boundaries respected.
I don't know how helpful I am, but I just want you to know I'm thinking about you, and sending you lots of safe hugs. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
I hope this helps. We're all here for you.
-BEH