I have had a lot of health struggles for the last couple of years. I've been in horrible pain all the time. I can barely function most of the time. Almost a month ago, I got a prescription for birth control, which I sought because of fear around one of my abusers coming back to my area... But I am very happy that I did, because two days after I started taking it, all of my constant, chronic pain - was gone. My life has changed pretty incredibly in the last three and a half weeks when I'm not in severe chronic pain. :yahoo:
I've been working so hard on the cleaning and packing that now I am so sore and can barely walk sometimes and you know what? It feels so good to be in major pain from something I did. It's not a mystery, not just something I have to deal with. I know what it came from and I own it, and it is incredible. :thumbsup:
Day before yesterday, I was working in my mom's garage going through old boxes and I found my dad's dress watch from when I was a little girl. I was happy just to see it again, and stuck it in my pocket and kept working. Then later, I went in and told my mom I'd found it and asked her if I could take it and keep it in my jewelry box, or if she wanted it. While I was talking to her about it I pulled it out of my pocket to show her and I noticed that it had stopped at 6:18pm, Friday the 5th.
He died at 6:18pm Friday September 5th, 2008.
Shivers. I didn't actually cry, I thought it was very strange, I was intrigued and it was a solemn realization, but I didn't cry. Which I was glad for, honestly, because there is so much changing for me right now with all of this, and yes, my most recent abuser is still a big concern for me in that it could happen again, but that has to go to the back burner for now and just focus on what I have to focus on.
So, My Pandy's family, thank you for supporting me, I will probably be spotty on my ability to be on here for the next couple weeks as I am moving and getting settled in new routines, but my love, safe :hug: s, and support are always with you all and I will be back as much as I can!
Thank you for your continued support and for listening to my thoughts. I am doing better with the whole move now, I just have to get through it, I can actually see the light in it and that it will be for the best.
Lots of love and light,