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Dont know what to think

Posted by niki , 29 October 2012 · 25 views

My rapist committed suicide almost a year ago now. I've really been missing him lately. I know I shouldn't and I hate myself for it but i miss the way he made me smile. I miss falling asleep next to him and feeling safe. I miss the old him...the him before the rape. I dont know what to do and I dont know what to think about these feelings I having right now.

Mine committed suicide, too. I'm not sure how I feel about it. Sorry you are so confused. :confused:
Sorry to hear that. There are days when Im glad he is gone and can no longer hurt me but then others when I feel selfish for ever thinking that and wish her were still alive. It is so confusing!

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