i feel so angry today but i dont know why
I dont know what the hell is wrong with me today, but everything is making me REALLY ANGRY. I rarely feel like this and i hate it. Anger has always been a scary emotion for me to be around so i just want it to go away. Everything just seems to be pissing me off, music, internet, my pets, my apartment ARGHHHHH why???
Maybe its coz im tired and havent slept properly, maybe im angry about something but dont know what...i know i REALLY am not looking forward to going back to work. Maybe its everything?
Maybe its my sister. I know i am angry with her. She just expects to get everything she wants. Im angry that she never wants to see me and tries to make me feel like shit about myself.
I had 2.5 weeks off work and i said i'd really love to spend at least ONE of those days with my neice, she could sleep over and id take her somewhere special like the zoo or something i said u pick the day...
She never told me a day. I rang her several times and saw her and i said when can i have her? and she said i dunno i have to work it out.
FOR FUCKS SAKE SHE DOESNT WORK, MY NEICE GOES TO NO GROUPS SHE JUST SITS AT HOME AND DOES NOTHING. BUT SHE CANT FIND A DAY FOR ME TO SPEND WITH HER???
But hell if she wants to go out she rings me and says can u look after her?...she just uses me. I say yes because i want to spend time with my neice. Im her aunty she has no uncles or auntys i want to spend time with her. I dont want to be like my aunts and uncles who didnt give a fuck about me....