New Psychologist :)
I have a really good feeling about this new one, for the first time... It's a man.
Strangely, I feel more comfortable speaking with him. He's Indian but speaks perfect English.
It was an emotional day, revisitng those times it happened.. speaking about it, feeling it again. My healing has come a long way, but still when I have to speak of those times... Fear is still etched within me, though it no longer hurts like it used to.
Telling the psychologist everything that has happened over the past 5 years made me realize how bad it was... i can't believe i survived that time. I was reckless.
My mum still has regrets about that time, wishing she had done things differently. But like she said, it was my choice. I don't regret anything at this time. The guilt is still there. But my mind and heart tells me often that it was never my fault.
I'm happy that my life is different now, i'm no longer in the dark. Trying to find my way. I'm hoping that all the healing I have been doing, and the action I have taken will help me to come out the other end, with a huge smile on my face. Proud of what I have achieved.
Wish me luck everyone Because this is a New Beginning of my life.
Much Love to All,