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The Power of Love

Posted by tjmom726 , 29 November 2010 · 32 views

I have been told that my capacity to love is strong and intense. I always tell those I care about how much they mean to me. I often feel rejected because I don't think people love me as much as I love them, but now I am starting to realize that the gift and the power of love is much more profound if it is given for the right reason and without a need...


What it takes to walk away

Posted by tjmom726 , 28 November 2010 · 29 views

At ten years old, my uncle's fiance caught him with me. A few months after that, she married him. She had a daughter one year younger than me. Nothing was done to him at the time. My other family members forgave him for me. I had to go on with my life.

At 14 years old, I was confronted by some girls at school. They asked me why I cried about going h...


Paintings in My Mind

Posted by tjmom726 , 28 November 2010 · 25 views

As a young high school student. I hated every inch of me. I longed for death. I was afraid of living. I would go to a school with peers who didn't like me. I would be in a shop setting, learning about printing and ink. I would hide from the kids who put me in camera rooms for hours in the dark. I would never eat hoping I would die from starvation. The...


Does Anyone Miss The Mom in their life?

Posted by tjmom726 , 24 November 2010 · 25 views

I am still struggling with the "mom" issue. Because I have few memories of the normal part of my childhood, I cannot remember my mother acting like a mom. I cannot remember her tucking me in at night. I cannot remember her reading to me. I can't even remember he combing my hair or giving me a hug. I remember her yelling about my chores. I reme...


A Time To Heal?

Posted by tjmom726 , 24 November 2010 · 28 views

Sometimes I wonder what is the best way to heal. I have been in counseling for many years throughout my life and always the subject is the same. I do not feel worthy of living. I feel ashamed because nothing was done about my abuse. I am alone and afraid sometimes and I wish I had someone in my corner to be there. I survived sexual abuse from my Father,...

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