i miss you Lee, you were the best of us. You lit up a room with your brilliant smile and your warmth. What should be a happy occasion, celebrating your birthday today, has brought me a heavy heart. As much as I've tried to only remember our happy moments together, the pain and brutality of losing you overshadows it all. I wish you could have found Pandys, maybe you would have found the support here you needed to keep you alive. I've written in this blog several times, and they have always ended up in the drafts folder. I will try to honor your life on this day by being brave and posting this, for both of us. It's my gift to you, I hope you found the eternal peace you were seeking. You are sorely missed. Forever young my lovely sister.