Of course I didn't want to have their kid. The first was a stranger and the second, my roommate, but I did not have a choice in the possible conception. I took Plan B the first time. That means it never formed right? Right? It haunts me. 9 months from the rape I had a breakdown for the child I could have had. Shouldn't have had. The second assault, I did nothing. Just waited.
I'm not sure why this has affected me so much. I wouldn't have wanted a child. I couldn't have handled raising something that could have looked like him. Either of them.