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Everything is piling up!

Posted by DoAnYa323 , 15 September 2010 · 4 views

I just don't know what to do anymore. I have no one to actually talk to about this. My friends and family say they are there for me but every time I try to talk to them, they don't know what to say or try and focus on something else (especially my dad and one of my best friends). I know they mean well, but I wish I could receive the same advice or encouragement that I give them.

Everything has been going wrong it seems this entire year so far. Only maybe 5 days tops have been good so far. The financial troubles suck; there was even a few points where me and a few members of my family that were staying with me couldn't eat for a few days cause the money just wasn't there last month.

School isn't letting up either. I never took a break from school after the assault and I only have this semester to bring up my grade or else I will get kicked out of my major =/... I go to my adviser, but I mentioned to her that I've been going through a lot and asked if it would help if I discussed it with her and she told me she didn't want to hear it (well she just quickly said "that's okay don't say anything" before I could even complete my statement) =/ I'm still trying my best to keep my head up and do my best in my classes of course...

Today, I had such a bad flash/dream that I couldn't even stay the whole day at school. I have been sick to my stomach and still do. I think yesterday was the thing that triggered the dream cause I had to walk through the area where I first met "him" to get to different hotels to apply for jobs. >< It was nerve-racking...

I'm also scared for the upcoming trial against "him" too. Its soon and I don't know what to expect of course... I just hope the justice system will b on my side...

I just have been telling myself that "something's got to give". There has to be some time an extended period of happiness will happen...

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