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Been Away for a While

07 July 2011
Posted by espoir_de_lavenir  
Hey there. =)
I've been away for a while, which, I'm sure you probably realize, if you've read the title. But, things started popping up. I started to get sick, and started having some issues with my parents and college (which, by the way, I'm starting in the fall. I'M FINALLY MOVING OUT!!). Anywho, things have just...
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Just a Thought... *TW*

20 February 2011
Posted by espoir_de_lavenir  
If there was one person you could say has made the biggest impact on your life, who would it be? Right now, almost everyone is naming off a family member or a friend, but I would chose someone whose name I never even knew.

When I was six years old, I was at an auction in one of the smallest towns in northwestern Ohio. There was this boy who...
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Kids

20 February 2011
Posted by espoir_de_lavenir  
The large, innocent eyes of a child are staring back at you; what else can you do but smile? They look at you as if you're their world, even if it's just for a moment. It makes me feel on top of the world when the kids I babysit look at me like that.

Kids have this instantaneous calming effect on me. They make me feel so at ease,...
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The Haunting *TW*

20 February 2011
Posted by espoir_de_lavenir  
The pitter patter of small feet running on cement threatens to wake me as I dream. I see the little girl to whom the feet belong and a sudden urge to tell her everything will be O.K. comes over me. I know who she is, and I know what she is about to do, but, knowing these things make me want to encourage her, not stop her.

It was the few...
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Silly Talk

20 February 2011
Posted by espoir_de_lavenir  
Don't you wish that you could go back to the time in your life when silly talk made perfect sense to you? I know that I often wish I could go back to the time when I could still talk silly talk. I had so much fun talking to my friends using silly talk that only we could understand. There were always those code names we used for the boys we...
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Scream

20 February 2011
Posted by espoir_de_lavenir  
"I want to scream until no sound comes out."

Fade to the background and what do you see?
Someone hiding in the shadows alone as can be;
Shivering,
Crying,
Trying to hold it all in so that no one is bothered once again.
Her mouth open,
Gaping,
In the soundless scream....

I want to scream,
but no sound comes out.

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Good Luck...

20 February 2011
Posted by espoir_de_lavenir  
Good luck today,
Facing the monsters of this world.

It's rather scary out there,
So,
I think I'll settle for staying inside.

The world under my covers is much,
Much more appealing.

No scary things,
Only squishy,

Soft,
Fluffy things to cuddle with,

And a boyfriend too

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I want to badly to break her free,
but there's always the issue of security.

She looks so pretty trapped behind the glass and in a cage with filthy people pressing their faces close to see.

Her sorrow seems to radiate into me as I stare,
but there's nothing I can do for her.

Her beautiful eyes stare back at me,
and I nearly cry...
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Searching for You

20 February 2011
Posted by espoir_de_lavenir  
I look for you in the sky...
You never come.

I look for you in the snow...
You always cease to be.

I look for you in the highest of heights,
Even though I know that you'll never be there...

I look for you in the stars...
Hoping to see you in the constellations.

I look for you in everything you may be...
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The Deep *TW*

20 February 2011
Posted by espoir_de_lavenir  
This thing is dragging me down into the deep.
The water is ice cold as it flows over me,

But still the monster's grip is icier then the water's could ever be.

It burns my flesh as it keeps on dragging me further and further into the solitude that is the deep.

The deep is as black as a million and one nights,
And yet,

The monster is...
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