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triggered hardcore.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 03 July 2014 · 152 views

i went to watch fireworks with my mom and her boyfriend. they're doing them a day early here in attempt to cut down on the possibility of drunk driving, especially on a friday night. so we went to get ice cream. she absent mindedly, but not intentionally, goes to the dairy queen directly across from my monster's house. i wasn't even a football field...


bad news.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 03 July 2014 · 137 views

my airman got his phone temporarily shut off before he went overseas because he wouldn't have gotten service there anyway. so 97% of our communications are through social media sites. you know that noise it makes when someone instant messages you on facebook? that automatically skyrockets my heart rate and brings the biggest, stupidest smile to my fa...


the doctor.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 01 July 2014 · 155 views

i have an appointment at 4 today. i'm not thrilled about it, but it's something that needs done.
back in early december, i was job shadowing at a fancy restaurant, and something didn't feel right. i ended up fainting and my head bounced off the tile floor like a basketball. my mom insisted i go to the hospital when i started getting spacey...



Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 28 June 2014 · 108 views

so [s]good great morning. i woke up to the voice of my loved one overseas. i heard him from across the house and was out of my bed before my eyes were even open. mom got him on skype. he was only available for a matter of minutes, but it was probably the best way to wake up.
i remember a few years ago when he lived like five states away and he came here...


does anyone else have a strange trigger?

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 27 June 2014 · 154 views

this has to sound absolutely ridiculous. popsicles. you know those popsicles in the plastic tube? we always get generic ones, so i don't know the real name. but they're a trigger for me, specifically the green, orange and purple ones. my mom picked some up. i used to love them, and sometimes i can finally eat the other colors.
but let me explain. i encoun...



Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 26 June 2014 · 98 views

my mom and i sent our first care package overseas today. a fluffy pillow, blankets, snacks, toiletries, all kinds of stuff. my grandparents sent a package about a week ago, and my aunt sent one today. he's gonna get tons of stuff at once. they're moving him next month, but he'd be back where he's at now in about six weeks, just incase it doesn't...


a seriously pointless blurb about my pets.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 25 June 2014 · 150 views

if there's anything i can count on to cheer me up, it'd be my cat. she's such a dainty little princess, but she eats like a piggy and snores like a man. she's a ten year old himalayan with no real name. she just goes by whatever i feel like calling her, and it's funny because she responds. it doesn't confuse her or give her a kitty identity crisis....



Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 24 June 2014 · 76 views

it's rather personal, and it could be too much information, but i'm still just terribly uncomfortable.
i had to go see the lady doctor today, and that always triggers up a storm of emotional anguish. she knows nothing of the sexual abuse because i have been seeing her since before then. i never told her, because it never really came up. she k...


still struggling

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 22 June 2014 · 80 views

my depression has been swallowing me today. it's not even related to his deployment this time.
i went to church, and the grocery, and to get some other things to mail overseas because he got back to me with an address. then i came home and took a nap. but while i was out i got myself a box of chocolates. i've been exercising a lot so i decided i deserved...


panic attack.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 21 June 2014 · 114 views

i don't feel safe.
really paranoid. having trouble breathing. getting dizzy.
i even took my emergency anxiety meds.
no improvement.
i just want to scream for help, as if that'd do anything.
don't know what brought this on, but i hate it.

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