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I feel selfish for having to process this.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 25 January 2014 · 177 views

so i haven't slept in my room in months. I'm just not comfortable there, so I sleep on the couch. now I'm sleeping in the exact place of a murderer. my brother ever so kindly brought that one up. I knew him for over half my life. we've been in close quarters too many times to count. I know my best friend is having a harder time than I am, but she's the strongest person I've ever met. i feel selfish for needing to process this. it's her brother. he was like my brother, but not like how he's hers. i saw a picture of her, her mom and her dad. her dad looks dazed and her mom looks heartbroken. it looks like my friend is the only thing holding her up. my friend looks like she's being strong for everyone. she takes on that role a lot. she'll get to her emotions when she's ready, but right now, she's in her caretaker mode. she was rather calm when she told me, she looks at things from such a logical standpoint. I'm no longer comfortable on the couch, I'm no longer comfortable in my room...guess who's sleeping in a nest on the floor tonight?

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