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my brother.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 31 July 2013 · 60 views

so my brother's in the military, and i had a dream he got hurt really bad. i was there and i wanted to save him, but he wouldn't let me. it didn't really make sense, but i woke up pretty rattled. i feel stupid 'cause i keep getting all teary-eyed, but he means the whole world to me. my dad died when i was two, so my brother has been the on...



Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 30 July 2013 · 59 views

i believe i've been regressing. i've had so many ups and downs lately, but there's a lot going on. but i keep thinking about what happened. i remember that night when i got home, my mom was so mad at me. she said it was my fault because i didn't scream. she said she was right upstairs and would have done something if she knew. my mom has a...


didn't quite anticipate this.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 29 July 2013 · 61 views

so it's been determined that i'm around seven weeks along. how was i unaware that something is living inside of me for seven weeks? i feel guilty and negligent for waiting so long to pursue this matter. and i'm really worried about all the things i've been putting in my system. i take fourteen pills a day and i was drinking with my boyfri...


kinda stressed.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 28 July 2013 · 44 views

i think it's stupid that it's so much easier to tell strangers on the internet things that i'm scared to tell people in the real world. yesterday i found out that i'm expecting a little one. it wasn't a huge shock, because i had every telltale symptom in the book. regardless, nobody knows. i don't know how, or when, i should tell h...


got fired.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 19 July 2013 · 49 views

lost my job last week. i supposedly "got laid off because we hit a slow period." uh...no. i feel like it was honestly a personal thing with the owner. she's treated me like shit since day one. she never spoke to me. had i not had a tight connection with the executive chef, i have no doubt that i wouldn't have gotten that job. she's su...


can't sleep.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 15 July 2013 · 46 views

anxiety is acting up. it's been over six months since i've stayed somewhere other than my own house. my boyfriend had to go home after our five day staycation, and my mom won't be back from vegas until way late tomorrow. i'm at my grandparents' house because i can't handle so much time alone. luckily, they're keeping my big, st...


racing mind.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 03 July 2013 · 69 views

i'm sitting here watching my cat having the best freaking time of her life playing with a crumpled up piece of paper. and my dog gets absolutely ecstatic every single time i walk through the door. i envy their simple life, how something so minor can make their day. it's beautiful.

within the past five years, i've been admitted to a psychiatr...

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