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i hope everything works out.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 13 August 2013 · 104 views

so the job interview went well. when i walked in and asked for the chef, the host didn't believe me. i guess i understand. i'm barely over five feet tall and people tell me i look like i'm about fifteen. but even at eighteen, people still don't expect me to already have extensive culinary training, skills and certifications.

tomorrow i h...


love is stupid.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 12 August 2013 · 92 views

i finally heard from my boyfriend. i don't know why he suddenly came around, but i'm glad he did. i can't help but wondering what he's been doing for the past two weeks. he's gone to such great lengths to avoid me that it's unreal. maybe he just needed time to face reality.
but maybe he should have just manned the fuck up! i...


TERRIBLE setback.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 11 August 2013 · 87 views

holy shit. today has been one of the worst days i've had in a long time. i had two completely EXPLOSIVE meltdowns within three hours. i sat in my car sobbing hysterically and screaming bloody murder for an hour. then i came home and chilled out a little bit, but i was triggered again . back to my car, back to the sobbing, back to the screaming.



o' sister

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 10 August 2013 · 121 views

honestly, i'm just waiting for my mom to go to bed so i can cry. a few years ago, my brother gave me his ipod, and i stumbled across "o' sister" by city and colour. within seconds, i was in tears. i thought it might be coincidental, but i wasn't sure. i asked him, and it turns out that it was no coincidence at all. it felt like getting...


i'm NOT going back.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 09 August 2013 · 125 views

i haven't slept in my room for weeks now. i'm scared of it, but my mom is tired of me sleeping on the couch. our tiny apartment was close quarters to begin with, but since i refuse to go in my room, it seems even closer. i don't even like going in there to get clothes and stuff. there's about a snowball's chance in hell that i'm go...


job interview on tuesday.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 09 August 2013 · 80 views

when i lost my job, my confidence went with it. well, i just got a call for a job interview on tuesday. i applied a few weeks ago and i hadn't heard anything, so it kind of caught me off guard. i'm such an awkward person, though. i just hope i don't make a total ass of myself. however, it works in my favor that the executive chef at the restau...


he's almost gone.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 08 August 2013 · 84 views

it doesn't even feel like i have a brother anymore. he moved across the country almost four years ago. i see him once a year, twice if i'm lucky. i used to see him almost every day. before he moved, the longest we ever really spent away from each other was maybe two weeks tops. he is the only male role model i've ever had, and i practically i...


don't mind me, just trying to sleep.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 08 August 2013 · 81 views

ugh. it's storming like crazy here. i finally fell asleep after a very extensive panic attack, and this shit woke me up. as if my anxiety wasn't out of control to begin with, i'm actually up worrying about whether or not the power is gonna go out. this may sound totally absurd, but i'm still scared of the dark. i'm scared of the unkno...


too depressed to sleep.

Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 06 August 2013 · 105 views

i'm waiting for my hourglass
to run out of sand
letting go of every grain
as it slips through my hand

please don't turn it over
just leave me here to die
i don't want another chance
i'm too broken to try

for eighteen long years
i've given life all i got
i hoped that it would be enough
but obviously it's not

i fell through rock b...



Posted by SomebodyLoveMe , 06 August 2013 · 71 views

i'm having a hard time deciding whether or not i should feel bad about a crush. on one hand, it's a harmless crush. i don't think either of us are going to act on it. on the other, i've been with my boyfriend for a long time and now i'm pregnant with his baby. it's this guy i used to work with. i worked in a really bad area, and he...

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