Today's not good
Will I ever feel sane? Will I ever be normal??
I still feel attracted to men..and I am ashamed that I do. I still have a sex drive, but feel ashamed that I do.
What happened to me, I did not want. I slept with him willingly, but when he started getting me to do things I wasn't sure about, and I got nervous.
I want to fall in love. I used to be a happy woman, always perky and nice to every one. Now, I'm jaded. I always look over my shoulder. I am scared of men. I have a male supervisor and a male boss. How on earth can I function on my job??
I'm not the same as I was. I miss me. Will the real Amanda please come back? The girl that was happy and perky?? I really miss her and want her back. All i did was move out on my own. I never wanted to be raped.
I thought my first time would be special. Now I am scared of sex. I thought It wouldn't be how it was.
How long will it take me to move on??