Today was a tired day

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Today was a tired day

27 November 2012

Posted by amandaunderthepink

Forgive me for whining. Today I was so tired. My stomach hurts. I can't perform bodily functions. My skin is dry due to all the hot water I submerge myself in. I soak in scalding hot water to clean myself of the daily filth I feel. Yet, I am not clean, Very rarely do I feel peace. I feel peace with God- He protected me that night. He kept me from death.

I am so tired of being angry, yet if I give up, its like I am telling him that he's won, that I will forget. I will never forget. Every so often, something scares me or keeps me just angry enough to hate. I never thought I could be mad this long. I am trying to stay positive and am in all parts of life except this one.

I want him to pay. I want him to feel the pain I feel every day. I want him to be scared of the dark. To have to sleep with the tv on. To be changed as I was. I want to stop hurting. Instead, he needs to hurt.

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Hello, hope you feel better soon. I agree. He needs to hurt!! If only there was a way! I wish for it every day, just as you do. Thanks for your post :metoyou: