Im scared

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Im scared

09 September 2010

Posted by amandaunderthepink

I HAVE A DATE TOMORROW...ITS MY FIRST DATE AFTER MY RAPE AND THE MAN WANTS TO TAKE ME TO A HOTEL AND TEACH ME WHAT SEX IS REALLY LIKE. IM SCARED AND DONT REALLY WANT TO GO...BUT I KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT I AM BEING STUPID AND TO SUCK IT UP AND GO. I TELL MYSELF THAT ITS TIME FOR ME TO STOP DEALING WIITH THE SHIT AND TO GET ON WITH MY LIFE....
IS THIS A NORMAL CONCWERN, OR AM I LOSING IT??

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I don't think your stupid. I also think it sounds like this is something you don't really want to do, so you shouldn't do it. It sounds like you don't know this man very well so it might not be a safe situation. (This is just what I'm getting from your post, I could be wrong). It's important to listen to your instincts and feelings because they are valid. If you are scared then there is a reason you are scared, probably because you know you're not ready for something like this. Even if you are ready to enter it to a relationship (which you may not be, and that's fine) it might be more comfortable if you could take things a little slower. Again, I don't know anything about your relationship with this guy it just sounds like you have some concerns. Please take care of yourself because you are worth it, and if this guy doesn't respect your feelings if you want to wait to have sex then he's not worth it.

rebekkah, 09 September 2010 - 08:38 AM

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I AGREE WITH REBEKKA AND ALSO AMANDA HE SOUNDS LIKE HE JUST WANTS TO HAVE SEX. AND IF YOUR NOT READY FOR THAT YET, THAN DON'T GO. HE SHOULD TAKE YOU OUT ON DATES NOT A HOTEL ROOM. I HOPE YOU FOLLOW YOUR INSTINCT AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF BE CAREFUL. PANDY HUGS

stillbreathing, 09 September 2010 - 01:12 PM

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I agree. First off for just a date it seems he is already putting a lot of preemptive pressure on you to have sex with him. Sex is something you should do because you are in love with the man, and not because you want to know what it's like in a non-forceful situation. You've made it clear in this post that you are very hesitant to go because you already are aware that you will not be comfortable in that situation. My opinion is don't go. You may need more time to heal from your rape before you get involved in any serious relationships, but regardless of that no woman or man should feel pressured into any sexual activity on a date that they have not themselves agreed to wanting. I think you know that you aren't ready and don't entirely want this... you need to listen to your own instinct. They're there for a reason. *Hugs*

JadeAngel, 09 September 2010 - 05:41 PM