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Donna Mae DePola - Guest Speaker Chat ...May 25th 2013 ... for more information please read this!
There is still plenty of time and spaces if you'd like to sign up for the Guest Speaker Chat scheduled for this Saturday!
There is still plenty of time and spaces if you'd like to sign up for the Guest Speaker Chat scheduled for this Saturday!
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About my blog
This is basically my space to spill out everything I'm thinking and feeling.
Please note that some of the content here may be triggering.
What I write here is just me being honest with myself. Mostly just venting about things, realisations, and my path through healing.
There will be talk of CSA, SA, R, SI and ED here.
Please note that some of the content here may be triggering.
What I write here is just me being honest with myself. Mostly just venting about things, realisations, and my path through healing.
There will be talk of CSA, SA, R, SI and ED here.
You are so brave and so so strong. I know you are trying to live a normal life, unfortunately what you experienced is so so traumatic (it is not a normal life event), it appears that you are trying your hardest to get on with your life, but not acknowledging what a horrific experience you had. I would urge you to contact a therpist or rape crisis centre, the feelings your experiencing are like a form of post traumatic stress disorder, the voices that you hear are the same, parts of the scene replaying over and over and over, a therpist can really guide you through this, you I would suspect are in a really deep state of shock (it's like living through a mental fog of what happened).
You absolutely can do it, yes you can. What do you want out of??
Out of the pain? out of life?
Please please hang on, and please be kind to yourself, you had a horrific experience and you are not equipped with the tools and methods to immediately lead a normal life afterwards (no survivor of rape is-they have to slowly learn them, and learn them they do, that is a fact).
You say you feel like your losing it, I used to feel like I had lost part of myself and had to grieve that loss, but I found that part again, it was my soul, like the light had been turned off. I found the switch, it was hard, I had help, I knew I could not recover on my own.
I hope you keep posting, posting, posting, Keep in touch here, it's your space.
Take gentle, gentle, gentle care.
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