Why Did it happen?

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Why Did it happen?

01 July 2010

Posted by amandaunderthepink

I feel so stupid...I I was raped by a friend's brother. He asked me to come over, telling me he wanted my company. And because I always had a crush on him, I agreed. When I went to his door, he was drunk. I came into his house, and we started kissing. the first thought in my head was, wow, my first real kiss. We moved back to his bed room, still kissing. We lowered ourselves onto his bed, and had sex. After that, he got up, and went into his kitchen. He was gone about 15 minutes, then he came back. We had sex again, and then he told me he wanted oral sex.
I was scared and told him no. He grabbed me by my hair and forced my head to his crotch. "Suck it." I didnt open my mouth, so he pulled my hair. I remember saying "no,no, please stop. He forced his penis into my mouth. I started to suck, then started to gag. " Don't you dare throw up on me".

i sucked for what seemed like forever. When he let me go, I was scared and crying. Then, he pushed me on my back and had sex with me for 5 straight hours. It felt like forever. When he finished, he got up. He looked at me and said"you have a problem sucking dick, and I have a problem with that." THen he went to call his friend to bring him beer.. He forced me to drink it. he knew I didn't drink beer.

All this happened 2 weeks ago and I am confused. Was I really raped? will I ever heal?? What will happen to me?

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1 Comments On This Entry

Let me start by saying i've been in your shoes and No you're not stupid.
Yes it was rape. You said No he kept it going end of story.
You will heal. I know its hard to believe but im time you will heal.
If you ever need someone to talk to just PM me I'll be there 4 u

3Painz4eva, 02 July 2010 - 01:56 PM