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Things on my mind...

08 August 2010
Posted by Shining_On124  
"Don't waste your touch... You won't feel anything;
Or were you sent to save me?
I've thought too much,
You won't find anything worthy of redeeming.

Yo he estado aquí muchas veces antes y regreso..."

1. - I read a lot of old Livejournal entries on Thursday afternoon, from 2004 - 2006 today. I skimmed through...
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Tags: pondering, the past, gf

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Schism

03 August 2010
Posted by Shining_On124  
‎"I must keep reminding myself of this...

If there were no rewards to reap,
no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
... And I still may."


Last week (well, Tues?) I sent my gf an email saying I would appreciate feedback from her when I sent her...
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Tags: communication errors, trust, relationships

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Posted by Shining_On124  
I'm worried that she'll leave me. That she can't handle this...what I'm becoming.

I don't think she's ever been with a rape victim before.

I know that my anxiety is getting worse. I have decided that I may need to go on medication for it, with or without health insurance. I'll get the money.

I don't know what...
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Tags: girlfriend, love, worry, anxiety

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Posted by Shining_On124  
The past couple weeks my anxiety has been acting up. I know it's a combination of my healing, looking for a job and an apartment, freaking out because I haven't been spending as much time as I'd like to on my recovery.... then spending some time on my recovery and realizing that everything is building up into a monumental wave that...
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Tags: life, recovery

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About a kittums (cat)

18 July 2010
Posted by Shining_On124  
Sometimes I think I get so close with my animals, so emotionally attached, people might think it's weird. People that don't understand the "human-animal-bond", or people that think only dogs can be your best friend, but cats can't simply because of stereotypes (yes, they have stereotypes).

With Cosmo, for instance.

I...
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Tags: cat, pets, love

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Posted by Shining_On124  
Oh man, the Tool show last night was incredible.

The light show was fantastic, definitely the best I've ever seen. Their videos on either side of the stage were great, too. :D
There were no problems with the audio, no distortion (except on my recordings) and the vocals were fantastic!

The crowd was great. For me, there's...
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Tags: music, concerts, Tool

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Shining On

17 July 2010
Posted by Shining_On124  
Good things!!

First and foremost, - Eric and I got the apartment!! We move in August first, and we got all the perks that come with it: $50 laundry credit, $50 in-house maid service, $75 grochery gift card, and best of all, first month free rent!! All that's due is $225 from each of us...
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Tags: jobs, birthday, life

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Posted by Shining_On124  
My first interview today was this morning at 10am, with Merry Maids. It went really, really well.
Only problem is, my salary requirements. I need to make at least $400 a week to cover my living expenses. They pay you $8/hr, plus 20% (starting out, it can go up to 29%) from the total $ made on every house you clean. Most...
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Tags: job prospects, job interviews

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Bitter For Sweet

11 July 2010
Posted by Shining_On124  
Today made me realize just how much I need a fresh start.

Up visiting my mom, we sat in a meeting for about 2hrs. We talked about recovering from addiction, and relapse. While I suffer from abuse rather than a chemical dependency, I was able to tie some things to my own recovery.

They talked about triggers, and how places, whole...
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Posted by Shining_On124  
After leaving my girlfriend in the wee hours of the morning, I headed out to get Steven.

We stopped for gas and made sure we had snacks, then headed out.

I FORGOT THE TICKETS! So we ran around and stopped at a postal shop and the guy was kind enough to let us print them.

Then, the line was huge. We waited in line for almost an hour, and by...
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