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Crushed....

09 September 2010

Posted by Shining_On124

....like a soda can.

Here is a more, slightly in-depth thing on what exploded today and why I am so down.

He said that he'd been "wrapping his head around this the past couple days and here's the conclusion".

He doesn't want to get too attached going into the Navy. "You're a great gal and you deserve a great...

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Tags: semiotic love, what coulda been, amazing, potential

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Fighting Tao - CrashLove

08 September 2010

Posted by Shining_On124

....Things didn't work out with me and Chris.

I still believe that he really liked me.

I'm crushed, but have stopped crying for now.

I cried for a couple hours. My best friend Amber is over.

I don't know. He said that he didn't want to get too attached going into the Navy. That he'd been through a similar thing recently....

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Tags: semiotic love

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Semiotic Love

07 September 2010

Posted by Shining_On124

Instead of cutting up my arm,
I paint.

Instead of driving off a cliff,
I drive to the beach,
where I find solace even in the dark dead of night.

**EDIT: No, I will not/have not cut nor do I have serious suicidal thoughts. Cutting is my bad habit and the cliff thing is a stupid thought in my head when I need to escape, or...

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Tags: about to just say "screw it all", dating, guys

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Movin' on, movin' up.

04 September 2010

Posted by Shining_On124

Last night was one of the best Friday nights I've had in a long while.

I hung out with Chris, his roomie Wes, and Wes's girl (so...in a sense it was like a double-date).
We went to an Irish pub and it was fantastic. Soo much fun. Wes and Chris know the guy who was performing, an old Irish guy who greeted both me and Wes's girl with...

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Tags: relationships, good times

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"- just diggin' on the feelin' of feeling sublime!"

01 September 2010

Posted by Shining_On124

I had a fantastic date today (well, Tues) with a great guy named Chris.

And when we parted, I got two kisses.

I'm also seeing him tomorrow, and he invited me to hang out with him and his buddies on Friday (which will hopefully lead into Saturday...and maybe Sunday?

), I'm so excited! Someone who likes me and...

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Tags: fresh start, happiness

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It feels nice....

31 August 2010

Posted by Shining_On124

...to smile in the mirror at myself again.

To feel bliss, happiness, and just feel good about myself agian!

This week is going to be awesome. I've met a great guy, who I'll be seeing later today, and Weds, and Friday and probably the rest of the weekend if this kick off like they have been.....

The drama with my ex is...

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Tags: positivity, self-esteem boost, relationships

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...so...

25 August 2010

Posted by Shining_On124

.....my ex girlfriend is mailing my stuff, whatever else I had at her house, to my apartment
because we couldn't meet up tonight for me to get it back (she's busy).

I laughed at the absurdity. "For real?!"

I was already pissed at the shit she was trying to cause. After texting me about when I could get my stuff...

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Tags: ex absurdity, life

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"- just diggin' on the feelin' of feeling sublime!"

21 August 2010

Posted by Shining_On124

I feel fantastic.

Today was one of the best days (and nights!) I've had in a long time!

I just got home from meeting up with one of the Pandy's members - another sexual assault survivor who's my age - (mountaingoats!), and we had a fantastic time. It was a 2-hr drive up to LA, plus traffic, but it was sooo worth it. Not...

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Tags: complete freedom, surviving!

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Space-Bound

17 August 2010

Posted by Shining_On124

After much debate and contemplation, I broke up with my girlfriend on Sunday.

She was mad at me more for how it was done, rather than that it happened. But she said that she "agreed" and wanted to talk to me in person on Weds about it. I told her I had already made my decision, and I don't think I want to speak with her - but it...

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Tags: updates

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"I feel underappreciated..."

12 August 2010

Posted by Shining_On124

"My life is full of desperation, devastation... all I truly know...
All that I know is isolation, self-damnation.
All light that I'd owned... was shed and worthless now."

Yesterday, after spending all day and a good portion of the night with my best friend, we parted ways and I headed to my gf's house.
She told me to come over...

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Tags: gf, anxiety, feelings, Space Bound

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