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things are going better. everything has calmed down. i moved out of my grandparents house. me my mom and sister got our own place. i love it! theres no more arguing and screaming and police!
and yet i hate the change. im so used to madness going on that part of me misses it. :/ weird i no.
but i met a guy. hes amazing. hes nothing like ive every seen. hopefully hes not lieing. from the dirt ive dug up on him hes just as amazing as i thought. hes not a bad kid. hes a hard worker and gentalman :)/>
im sick again. ive got bronchitis again :(/> it sucks!!!
i cant do anything but sit around at home and rest. i feel so useless. i need to be working! or something! i feel bad just sitting around :(/>
but its kinda nice not working 45 hours a week. and once i get better i start my second job :/
i dunno things are ok i guess.
with this guy i feel like im doing something wrong. cuz im not doing anything sexual with him. but he doesnt want me to feel that way. he doesnt want to do anything sexual. he want me to be ready if we ever do anything. and hes ok if we never do anything. its weird.
he asked to meet my mom before we went on our first date ha! i thought that was awsome. my mom loves him. shes never liked any of the guys ive dated!
she doesnt usually like me dating period lol. but shes ok with him being around all the time. she likes the fact he comes over to just hang out with her me and my sister and not wanting to leave all the time and just be with me. i like it to cuz if he doesnt like my family then hes not good with me.
all in all things are ok. my sister is pregnant and doing better. its been 2 months and a week since my brother in law killed himself. shes not as depressed anymore. still sad but shes actually up and doing things now.
ive lost 30 pounds since my rape. i only weigh 95 pounds. which isnt bad cuz im only 4"10 but ive lost it all from not eating :/ thats a whole nother blog. one ill talk about another day.
and yet i hate the change. im so used to madness going on that part of me misses it. :/ weird i no.
but i met a guy. hes amazing. hes nothing like ive every seen. hopefully hes not lieing. from the dirt ive dug up on him hes just as amazing as i thought. hes not a bad kid. hes a hard worker and gentalman :)/>
im sick again. ive got bronchitis again :(/> it sucks!!!
i cant do anything but sit around at home and rest. i feel so useless. i need to be working! or something! i feel bad just sitting around :(/>
but its kinda nice not working 45 hours a week. and once i get better i start my second job :/
i dunno things are ok i guess.
with this guy i feel like im doing something wrong. cuz im not doing anything sexual with him. but he doesnt want me to feel that way. he doesnt want to do anything sexual. he want me to be ready if we ever do anything. and hes ok if we never do anything. its weird.
he asked to meet my mom before we went on our first date ha! i thought that was awsome. my mom loves him. shes never liked any of the guys ive dated!
she doesnt usually like me dating period lol. but shes ok with him being around all the time. she likes the fact he comes over to just hang out with her me and my sister and not wanting to leave all the time and just be with me. i like it to cuz if he doesnt like my family then hes not good with me.
all in all things are ok. my sister is pregnant and doing better. its been 2 months and a week since my brother in law killed himself. shes not as depressed anymore. still sad but shes actually up and doing things now.
ive lost 30 pounds since my rape. i only weigh 95 pounds. which isnt bad cuz im only 4"10 but ive lost it all from not eating :/ thats a whole nother blog. one ill talk about another day.
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