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If you’d told me a year ago that I’d take comfort from sitting for an hour in a darkened, empty Chaplaincy, thinking, praying and of course, reading the bible, I’d have probably given you a strange look, told you that you clearly know nothing about me and walked off. Yet, that’s exactly what I did this evening. It’s strange isn’t it, how things...
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Thank you everyone

17 January 2013
Posted by tamz  
Thank you so much everyone for your continued support over the past few days. I couldn't have done it without you and thankfully, the self harm urges have calmed down a lot today.

It's weird isn't it, what we think is okay to be over and what's not, and how it's so much easier to see when other people are suffering and why...
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memories are so real!

16 January 2013
Posted by tamz  
I'm sorry to blog so much, I'm trying desperately to cling on, to not self harm. I'm hoping by letting things out in a safe environment that I'll be able to fight this.

Why are bad memories so strong? This whole incident (something happened today) has triggered me really badly, the memories, they feel almost real, almost like...
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Mention of the abuse and negative things people have said in response, please take very good care if reading this. I can't handle it so I don't expect you to either.


So something really triggering happened today and I ended up thinking about everything, about people's responses to everything. Not just the abuse, but other things...
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I'm so tired. It's been an incredibly difficult day. It's weird isn't it, what we think is okay to be over and what isn't. This evening though, I'm almost permanently triggered. Part of me thinks what's the point, it's not like anyone sees the self harm anyway. Does it really matter if they don't even know?...
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Don't they say start the year as you mean to go on? I quite literally just burst into tears for no reason! I was just sat down, straightening my hair and out of nowhere, I'm balling my eyes out :(/> How can I begin to work on my problems when I'm sat there crying my eyes out for no reason? I'm literally flitting back and...
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Happy New Year!

31 December 2012
Posted by tamz  
Happy New Year to all you lovely ladies and gents of Pandys :)/>

May 2013 bring us further on in our healing and our suffering to an end

Wishing you all peace, goodwill and happiness

:hug:/> :metoyou:/>

Tamz x

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was I really again?!

26 November 2012
Posted by tamz  
I just can't do this any more! I told a friend what happened with my ex a few months back and he said it was the r word! I can't deal with this, I just can't. Why does this keep happening?! It's like the third person now, why?!?!?!?!!?
Angry, upset, confused, just can't deal. Really really...
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If today was your last day

24 November 2012
Posted by tamz  
The song by Nickelback. I'm listening to it and it's making me think. If today WAS my last day, the one thing I'd be most worried about is dying with cuts. Apart from the actual dying bit obviously and it just being the end, I'd be worried about my parents finding out that I still self harm, I'd be absolutely horrified if...
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just not dealing atm

23 November 2012
Posted by tamz  
I swear I've been here before. Same feelings, same actions - the ones I thought I'd gotten over / dealt with countless times but no matter what I do, I always seem to end up back in this place - feeling rubbish, scared, not coping, self harming, feeling bad about self harming and goodness knows what other feelings.

It's a silly...
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