was I really again?!
Angry, upset, confused, just can't deal. Really really really triggered right now. Keep getting graphic images in my head of what I want to do, well not want to do but ya know, just those urges!
Ya know those times when it just hurts so so much inside, you feel like you're going to explode, you just don't know what to do, can't cope. And you just need to let it out the only way you know how, except you can't do that because that's just wrong, you CAN'T get drawn into that cycle again but I don't know what else to do. Just wanna scream!!!