Huh...so I'm new to this thing
I told my dad some of it. But I made it out to be less than it was. I know that was stupid. But I can't help it. I feel dirty and ashamed. I -know- it wasn't my fault, but that doesn't make it any easier. I still feel ashamed and dirty. I want to tell people. But...I can't. It might sound weird, but...something is stopping me.
I've lost interest in everything, my job, my course, everything. I'm NOT dropping out. I'm going to struggle on. I'm finished the course in four weeks. If I drop out now, I'll regret it forever. This is a temporary hitch. I have to get over it. I can't let him win. I just worry that it's gonna affect my ability to do the assignments or concentrate enough. I don't want a bad grade.
Also, I'm not agrophobic, but the thought of going out to college, or into town just terrifies me.I just want to be at home, alone. I don't want to have to deal with people. I'll have to though. Sooner or later.