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NO ONE UNDERSTANDS

16 August 2010
Posted by stillbreathing 
Everyday im slipping deeper into myself
Im nothing but an abyss
Pit of anger that burns like hunger in
my stomach
When I was younger I found ways to release the pain inside of me
But now I am just stuck in my own hell
And fear going to hell
As I write my death notes
And if I leave my children will they end up just like me, will they hate me
And if I keep them with an empty mom
will they be messed up then
I cant feel anymore
I dont know how to talk about it
Never learned and when I tried I was told to shut up
When all I wanna do is fuck some shit up
Like THEY fucked me up
No one understands
So Im left to my own demise

 
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5 Comments On This Entry

i understand. i felt like that not too long ago.
:hug: if its ok
confuddled, 16 August 2010 - 12:48 PM
I'm really sorry you feel this way. I want you to know I understand you. I hope you feel better soon.
BoundlessHeart, 16 August 2010 - 04:39 PM
I am so sorry for the pain you are in. You do not deserve this. I am sorry.
Untangling-It-All, 16 August 2010 - 05:47 PM

confuddled, on 16 August 2010 - 10:48 AM, said:

i understand. i felt like that not too long ago.
:hug: if its ok

Thank you :hug: :hug:
stillbreathing, 18 August 2010 - 11:59 AM

Untangling-It-All, on 16 August 2010 - 03:47 PM, said:

I am so sorry for the pain you are in. You do not deserve this. I am sorry.

Thank you :pandy: :hug:
stillbreathing, 18 August 2010 - 12:00 PM
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