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One day of peace please

Posted by stillbreathing , 15 February 2013 · 48 views

I prefer nights my mind is empty and I sleep peacefully. I keep praying the days, weeks, months, yrs that go by will eventually omit the memories from my mind. But they follow me through relationships ruining my most simplest ambitions. Building walls around me instead of bridges between me and those who love me. I just want to be able to feel anything a...


how to let go

Posted by stillbreathing , 05 April 2012 · 41 views

I dont know why i cant let go of it. its been almost four yrs and I wish I didnt have to think about it. todays my ex husbands birthday. if i could forgive him i woulda wished him a happy birthday but i dont want it to be happy. is that vindictive? i wish i could just let go of everything all the bad memories and mistakes ive made. i wish i could be one o...


It makes me sad to live in a world like this

Posted by stillbreathing , 09 March 2011 · 36 views

The front page of the news was about an 11 year old girl who was assaulted by 18 men ranging in age from 17-27. These things make me wonder if those men were even human, or deamons. Out of 18 people no one thought to stop it. No one thought this could be my little sister or daughter. There were that many sociopaths that knew each other. My stomach has bee...


My husband cought charges

Posted by stillbreathing , 14 January 2011 · 38 views

My husband was charged with rape in the 1rst degree. A part of me does not want to believe this and believe him but a part of me does think he is capable of it. Im worried and scared for our family and our kids. I dont know where to go from here...



Posted by stillbreathing , 16 August 2010 · 53 views

Everyday im slipping deeper into myself
Im nothing but an abyss
Pit of anger that burns like hunger in
my stomach
When I was younger I found ways to release the pain inside of me
But now I am just stuck in my own hell
And fear going to hell
As I write my death notes
And if I leave my children will they end up just like me, will they hate me
And if I kee...

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