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Posted by bellachai  
I just got back from the hospital and it looks as if my mother will not being going home today. Her left eye is so red I think if she cried her tears would be blood. Now her right eye is turning red. They do not know why with all the antibiotics she is getting in her IV so they do not want her to go home until she shows some improvement.

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Too Much Not Enough

07 April 2010
Posted by bellachai  
I visited my mother in the hospital this morning prior to seeing my T. I took her the things she asked for from home. Our doctor was just leaving when I arrived. The lab people were there putting in another IV line in her other arm because the line they had in was turning red up her arm. Mom did not have a good night and only slept for an hour...
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Posted by bellachai  
I had a meeting this morning in a town 50 miles away. I rarely go that far but was looking forward to the drive by myself. The drive there was pleasant with my radio on loud and seeing things just starting to turn green. Nice.

I was in my meeting when my cell phone which I had thought I put on vibrate went off. It was my mother and she was in...
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Blahhhhhhhhhh!

05 April 2010
Posted by bellachai  
Yes I still am on empty.

I am not thinking properly and this caused me to hurt a friend and I am so sorry for my stupidity. So I am not liking myself right now.

I forced myself to go to peer counseling. I did not want to go but I did anyway. The purpose to my having a peer counselor is to make sure I do not hibernate in my home. To get me...
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Posted by bellachai  
I am empty of emotions today. Total apathy. What do I do now? Where do I go from here? What do I feel now? I have no answers to these questions. I care but I do not care. Does that make any sense?

I don't want to stay awake today but I don't want to go to sleep. I don't want to clean my dirty house and I want the house clean...
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Posted by bellachai  
I truly was blessed today and I am so grateful. It has been a very long time since I had a really good day filled with gifts.

Some time ago I lost my diamond ring. The diamond is one of eight my Gram willed to me. She had this dinner ring that had eight diamonds in it. It was large and kind of guady but she really wanted a dinner rings and...
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Pondering

01 April 2010
Posted by bellachai  
I saw my T yesterday and was able to tell her about posting my fifth chapter and gave her the details. Was difficult and the rest of the session was intense and went quickly.

She told me I 'think' alot. I found that statement strange and was baffled so I did not ask her to clarify. Was that a compliment or did she mean people think...
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Posted by bellachai  
My daughter and her boyfriend were not home when I was ready to go to bed. They did not tell me they were going to be gone all day or that they would be getting in late. So I turned all the lights out even the porch light.

My duaghter this morning said to me "Gee Mom it was nice of you to leave at least one light on for us." I taught...
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Posted by bellachai  
Got up this morning getting ready to do some house work and my daughter came out. She sat on the couch and was quiet. I asked her why she was up so early and was there something wrong? She replied she would tell me later. We were quiet for awhale and then she said okay she would tell me. Her boyfriend Fake Jake received a call this morning...
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A Wasted Day *T*

27 March 2010
Posted by bellachai  
I could not sleep last night even with the help of Lyrica (it helps me sleep with little pain). So I finished the last 200 pages of Angels & Demons by Dan Brown. It was good. I love book that are mysteries or Good vs Evil and good wins. Yep I like fairy tales where the abused live happily ever after. I also most of my life dreamed there...
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