just a ghost now
Anything I say or do is of no interest to anyone in real life.
When I speak my mother says "hmmmmm".
When I speak to my daughter she says "I know mom"
All the friends I once had are gone now. They all were as active, intelligent and fun as I once was. I cannot be those things anymore since my health deterated and my breakdown so they just left.
Besides I don't make a good friend now. I cannot commit since a time and date in the future may be a day when my physical pain and/or depression is to high to go on that specified day and time.
I am still hassling with the Mental Health Center for my recieving more therapy since I had an appointment last week to redo my service plan and waited in the lobby for 45 minutes prior to walking out deciding I need a break from there.
My computer is broken so I cannot even hide in cyberspace and be here at Pandy's for support and friendship all that I want or need. I am grateful for all of you here.
Yeah I have no worth to anyone in my real life. They look through me and do not want to hear me.
I am just a ghost now.