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It was a busy day for me and am now exhausted and tomorrow will be as busy and am not looking forward to it. I would rather be sleeping.
I look forward to sleeping and do it whenever I can. Sad huh? I like that state where you aren't quite asleep but feel it coming and euphorically embrace it. When I sleep the physical pain is gone until it gets bad enough to wake me. There is nothing asleep just blessed quiet and peace. No emotional stuff. No flashbacks. No tears. No decisions to make. No thoughts of harming myself in anyway. Just no emotions while asleep. I feel nothing for that time and it feels good to me.
I went today to get fitted and learn how to use a CPAP. I am lucky that I do not have to wear the full mask. My mask only goes over my nose. There is a hose attached to the mask where air is blown up my nose. The CPAP while stop me from dying in my sleep. My oxygen is tubed into the elephant trunk. Oh joy I am so looking forward to this treatment.
I showed my daughter and her boyfriend after they promised not to laugh. It was difficult for them not to. They tried very hard. I think I would scare even a burglar.
Good thing I do not have a partner cuz how exciting that would be in the bedroom. Oh wait a minute honey while I put my CPAP and oxygen on otherwise the activities may render me to pass out due to lack of oxygen and breathing. I envision how fast a guy would run out of my house once seeing me turn into halloween demon.
Well maybe it will hlep me with my depression and energy level. I am keeping an open mind about it.
Blessings to all
I look forward to sleeping and do it whenever I can. Sad huh? I like that state where you aren't quite asleep but feel it coming and euphorically embrace it. When I sleep the physical pain is gone until it gets bad enough to wake me. There is nothing asleep just blessed quiet and peace. No emotional stuff. No flashbacks. No tears. No decisions to make. No thoughts of harming myself in anyway. Just no emotions while asleep. I feel nothing for that time and it feels good to me.
I went today to get fitted and learn how to use a CPAP. I am lucky that I do not have to wear the full mask. My mask only goes over my nose. There is a hose attached to the mask where air is blown up my nose. The CPAP while stop me from dying in my sleep. My oxygen is tubed into the elephant trunk. Oh joy I am so looking forward to this treatment.
I showed my daughter and her boyfriend after they promised not to laugh. It was difficult for them not to. They tried very hard. I think I would scare even a burglar.
Good thing I do not have a partner cuz how exciting that would be in the bedroom. Oh wait a minute honey while I put my CPAP and oxygen on otherwise the activities may render me to pass out due to lack of oxygen and breathing. I envision how fast a guy would run out of my house once seeing me turn into halloween demon.
Well maybe it will hlep me with my depression and energy level. I am keeping an open mind about it.
Blessings to all
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when i was being diagnosed a specialist wanted me to do a sleep study to rule out apnea....never happened, of course, because our doctors are crap (plus it kinda terrifies me so i didn't push for it)....but if i had that and it was treated then apparently my fatigue and depression could have improved. what i'm trying to say is that i really hope it helps....wouldn't that be amazing if something really helped. an open mind is a good place to be. also i'm glad you won't die in your sleep...
i feel the same way as you about sleep. last two nights have barely got any at all.....so i'd be surprised if anything i've written here makes any sense at all.
((much love and hugs, and thanks)))
I truly believe you will start to feel at least a little better once your body gets more oxygen, so don't discount any-thing just yet. Take good care of your-self.
Pink I hope you are sleeping now and well.
The only time I am not on oxygen nowadays is when I am awake and sitting in my chair or short walks around the house. Once I move around my oxygen level drops below 90 and sometimes even below 80. Yet for some wierd reason once I sit down I recover quickly. I really hate the portable oxygen like when I have to go shopping. Can't get very far away from the cart to look at something when the cord comes flying of my face cuz the canister is in the cart. I don't know how many times I have done that. It just seems cumbersome and a hassle. I do it anyway.
Blessings to you both as always
Blessings as always