Pandora's Aquarium: Not a good day - Pandora's Aquarium

My already damaged heart is breaking today. I am so sad and I am at a loss on what to do.

I am so tired. My mother and I both had to have blood drawn today so we went together. I went with her to run some errands. We went to Walmart for a few things. We picked up one of my mother's cats at the Vet's then went to her house. I came home with dad's truck so now I can get out on my own. Very nice of my mother let me have it. I wonder if it comes with a price tag. I will find out eventually.

I did not sleep well last night but I could not take a rest when I got home cuz it is my home health care day. A new person and she did a good job.

Where or how to begin and be brief?

My daughter's girlfriend got kicked out her dorm this last semester and she moved in with her boyfriend's parents. Last week these parents kicked her out say they did not like her. She had nowhere to go.

My daughter and her friend have a summer nanny job. They were going to just split the salary. The friend's boyfriend moved out of his parents home also. He has epilepsy so is disabled and gets disability. Fake Jake supposedly has had and still has a job at a pawn shop. So the four of them moved into an apartment together. They all were in the apartment this last Friday.

My daughter started calling me yesterday afternoon to rant about all the fighting going on between them all. Some of the stuff she was telling was pretty petty. With each call she made to me I received more and more information. I remember telling my daughter in one of the earlier conversations that they all better get it together cuz she was the only one that had somewhere to go (her dorm) even though living with 3 other girls with only one bathroom might be rough. She said to me it was not that bad.

Early evening she calls me in tears saying her friend and her boyfriend has kicked her and Fake Jake out. They do not have anywhere to go and there are no homeless shelters in Rock Springs and they don't even have a car now. I said well she could go to the dorm. No she could not cuz she dropped summer classes. So then I ask how they can get kicked out when they paid for deposit and rent too.

Thursdays are Fake Jake's paydays but for some really wierd reason they did not pay him and he cannot get hold of his boss for the last 4 days. So the girlfriend and her boyfriend paid the whole deposit and whole rent with the understanding that once Fake Jake got his paycheck he would pay them back.

My daughter said they have no where to go and no way to get anywhere. She did not know what to do. She knows she come home to me but Fake Jake cannot stay here. I told her that is correct.

Then she called me later and wanted to know why Fake Jake cannot come to my house. I said because he did not work here. Together they trashed my yard and my house. I told I would not even tell her the trash I found in her room I ended up cleaning and I found plates in the coat closet with God knows months old food rotted on them cuz Fake Jake was too lazy to put his dirty plates in the kitchen. I told no he cannot stay here.

That set her off. She does not understand how it is okay with me to take her in while Fake Jake wanders the street. None of her family give a crap about her if she is f***ing homeless or not. She told it was fine she and Fake Jake would live on the streets cuz there are not homeless shelters in Rock Springs. Then she hung up on me.

I looked for homeless shelters in Rock Springs via my computer and she is correct there are none. The nearest town that does have a shelter is Rawlins and it over 100 miles from where they are. So I just texted her that whether she believed it or not at the moment I do love her and care.

Later she texted me back stating she was coming home and Fake Jake is just gonna be living on the streets in Rock Springs. I decided not to comment on the guilt trip she was trying to lay on me. I just texted back a K.

Fake Jake called me around midnight to tell me that my daughter was in the ER cuz she swallowed a bunch of pills. I called a couple of hours later to see how she was. Fake Jake told me she had to drink charcoal and they were going to keep her overnight for observation. I called her this morning but she did not answer but Fake Jake called me back. He said they are going to keep longer for a 72 hour observation.

There it is. My daughter lied and misled me about her schooling. I am so disappointed and numerous other emotions that I cannot even separate. I am extremely hurt and worried..

The hopsital will not give me any information cuz she is an adult. She is almost 23. I do not know what to do now. I don't know if I should even call her dad and/or my son. I have not told anyone. Thank goodness I do have therapy tomorrow perhaps my T can help me figure things out cuz to me I set and boundry and stuck to it. The price I paid for that boundry is my daughter tries to kill herself.

Blessings to all