I get so angry at myself when I speak to people and I explain everything in detail which means always defending myself for my actions or how I am. I do not know how to just speak the facts and be done with it. I want to be like 'still waters run deep'.
I recognize I do this 'defending' out of fear. I might leave something out therefore setting me up for failure and I become 'not good enough'.
I have the compulsion to be perfect knowing I will never reach perfection. I apparently did not get the gene of perfection from my mother although she is sure she has the perfection gene.
I know I do not have to explain me to anyone, how I live and what I may believe. I know this yet I still over explain things or explain them to death.
Unlearning things is so much harder than learniing things.
Blessings to all