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Due to taking blood thinner medication I am required to have blood drawn periodically to ensure my blood is neither too thick or thin so the first place we went was to the hospital lab. The doctor's office called me late in the afternoon telling me my blood was too thin. Odd the only thing different I have been doing is not smoking but she did not think that would do it. Anyway they tell me how to adjust my medication/rat poison and I have to have my blood drawn next week. When it stablizes then I only have my blood drawn every month.
We ran some errands then my mother took me out to lunch at a nice resteraunt in the town 30 miles from here. Good food and a real treat for me. Afterwards we went to a grocery store in that town that my mother really likes and next door to it is a liquor store. Since my dad died (he was a recovering alcolholic, sober 28 years) my mother has been according to her having ONE drink in the evenings. So she went into the Liquor store and bought a big bottle of Tequila Rose (strawberry cream tequila). This is odd behavior for her. Yet she is 75 years old and what's the harm? She knows not to overdo it due to the meds she takes.
Each of my mother's neighbors live 5 acres away or more. One husband and wife my parents spoke to often. They were the first ones at the house when my dad died to help my mother and stay with her until my dad's body was removed. For a month now my mother has been speaking to me about how baffled she is cuz these nieghbors have not stopped by or called her for 3 months. I think it is odd myself. My mother is a recluse and the last and only lady friend she has ever had died 6 years ago. She was okay with dad and me being her only friends and someone to talk to. Dad was the social one. He was just like an good old farm boy. He would often go to the cattle sales, not to bid or sell a cow but to socialize with other farmers/ranchers. My mother preferred to stay home. She told in the last month that she does not have friends cuz she is too judgemental and critical. I was surprised she had this insight to herself. I think she was hoping I would say no she was not but I said nothong cuz it is true.
Anyway (sorry I go off on tangents) she told me and read to me the letter she wrote these neighbors. She thanked them for the help with Dad and right after he died. She wished them well. She is very bothered about these neighbors not being in some kind of communication with her in over 3 months. She wonders if she offended them in some way but cannot think of what she could have done or said that would have caused this distance..
I just find all this out of character and interesting behavior for her. I also find it well deserved but also very very sad. Since this is Memorial Day weekend many people were purchasing artificial flowers to place on the graves of their loved one. I personally think this is a morbid tradition but I also recognize that this gives many comfort in their loss. Both Mom and I had moments and not at the same time of grief over dad. what this National Holiday dredges up grief for ones lost. It is hard. My mother is goingt cut some Peonies out of her garden and put them in a vase by his ashes. He would like seeing the peonies. they are beautiful and have such large blossoms. It is just hard.
When i got home is fed and watered all my pets who were very glad to see me then colapsed in my chair. I was beyond exhausted. Rest did not last long as my daughter called me in pain and wanted to know what she should do. She has PMDD and hypothyroidism which has her hormones so out of whack and causes her to have severe pain. She was on DepoProvera which worked like a miracle but after she was on it for five years she has to take a break as it is not good for the bones. So she is trying out a new type of birthcontrol/hormone problemic which is implanted in the upper arm. For a year it seemed to work out pretty well but this last year she has had some problems. I told her to go to the ER. She did and was there all night and Fake Jake kept calling me with updates. I do not know yet what they told her but I know they gave her a heavy duty pain killer. She texted that she would call in a little while.
My daughter tells me that Fake Jake has been so good and improving. Time will tell.
Blessings to all