It has been two years now since I imploded. I just walked out on my job of eleven years and everyone I knew. I dropped out of everything refusing to leave my home or speak to anyone. I am healing but it is at a snail pace and sometimes I take two steps forward the slide back four steps. It is frustrating. The cure sometimes feels worse than the illness. I am taking care of my mental and emotional issues but my physical ones are barely being maintained as I cannot afford to take care of them properly and fully. Social Security disability is taking so long. It has been over a year now since I applied. I have a lawyer for it. What else can I do?????
What use to take me 30 minutes to do takes over an hour to do now. How do I learn to accept the unacceptable? That physically I will never be able to do all the things I use to do. How do I motivate myself to get past this enertia?
Is it worth it?