I am not thinking properly and this caused me to hurt a friend and I am so sorry for my stupidity. So I am not liking myself right now.
I forced myself to go to peer counseling. I did not want to go but I did anyway. The purpose to my having a peer counselor is to make sure I do not hibernate in my home. To get me out of my house. I do not know if it helps me or not. I do go out when it is needed like grocery shopping, to pay bills and sometimes I go to the Library to get old magazines for my collaging.
I think I may know why I feel so depressed and empty. I am standing on the cover of my own sewer. The place where I have stuffed all my negative emotions and they want out yet I am not letting them out and I am getting tired of being on the cover keeping them out because I do not want to feel all those emotions.
Blessings to all